Riddle time: guess who was recently glutened, had stomach aches, became a bit of a grump, then eventually started healing and finally had a proper meal only to be glutened again?
Oh yes, me. The first time I was careless so I guess I deserved it. However, today was a genuine mistake and a mix up really. So, what happens now? I honestly don’t know. I can either have another crazy week but starve myself food wise as such as possible to avoid stomach aches, I can eat and whine and moan like a baby or I can do whatever I want and laugh.
I pick option 3. I’m doing what I want and I’ll get through it with laughter. Seriously, it beats crying and worrying (not that that’s what I’ve been doing).
I’m making a promise to myself right now that no matter what happens from now until next Sunday I will smile, laugh, hold my head up high and just get through the days. I need to be braver, stronger and more able to deal with this better as the chances are it may happen again. Afterall, I live with gluten consuming humans who I cook for and we share the same kitchen so the chances of being protected from gluten for as long as I live are slim.
I have to admit, earlier when I established I had been glutened a huge part of me became incredibly pesimistic. Basically I heard of something happening in a few days time and I think I was looking forward to it but now I’m like ‘oh no!’. Some of you are probably thinking this is a psychological symptom. That is, since hearing I’d been glutened I’ve gone into panic mode and started stressing. I agree with you to some extent but that does not mean my gluten symptoms are also in my head… as in made up because we know gluten affects me mentally. So yeah, this thing coming up…. I really am starting to feel negative, there’s a knot in my stomach similar to when you have an exam and feel like you’re gonna hurl but I know I was okay before this so I know I need to fight it.
This week will be really interesting but I WILL get through it because I am a Muslim. I have Islaam. I have books like the Qur’aan and Sunnah I can read, books about general topics. I’m old enough, wise enough and mature enouh to be able to control my mood and actions, I can beat this and I will beat this… InshaaAllaah!!
May Allaah give me the strength, energy, courage, sincerity, good intentions and patience to get through this. May He guide me and enable me to at least maintain my eemaan and make me get through this and a stronger and better person, aameen ya Rabb!