It’s been sometime since I updated my blog, over two years if I’m not mistaken.

Just thought I’d give a small update. If you see this, drop me a comment and let me know you guys are still around.

So, my recovery has quite frankly, been astounding Allaahumma baarik aameen. Over time I have had some very small changes such as regaining some sensation in various parts of my body (we’re talking about the size of a 5p coin) at a time and I’ve noticed these changes may not even be permanent in most cases, however, it certainly gives one hope that healing is continuously taking place. A lot of the time I choose to not share my small victories as I don’y want to get my hopes up and then be let down. Alhamdulillaah that’s not the case as I actually have my emotions under control and can remain moderate in most, if not all things.

So since 2018, I came to terms with the fact that I may ot actually be physically nor mentally able to home school my daughter which was always my dream. It took me the entire Ramadhaan that year to silently and privately come to terms with that decision. I later that year put her into nursery part time which was great for her social skills as I realised she was much like me since leaving hospital and didn’t like socialising much. In October 2019 I was given back my driver’s licence which gave me the freedom to leave my house independently. I started with very short local journeys of up to 5 minutes. I couldn’t fully be independent as car parks were somewhat an issue as a non-disabled person. Having to park a short distance from where I was going with a distracted 3 year old and often in weather conditions and temperatures that didn’t suit my body was a mission. Thankfully, I was soon given a blue badge which made my life incredibly easy. As much as I never wanted to be labeled disabled it has been an incredible blessing and it is a label I am fully proud of. I’m pleased to be able to represent the disabled community and being from a BAME background I’m in a position to dispell misconceptions and presumptions where possible. In January this year, I got my first permanent part-time job since falling ill and being on maternity leave. This has meant I am able to fund my healthy lifestyle once again and at the start of Ramadhaan this year I went back to being paleo. I went through a week long healing crisis but it helped me hit the reset button. Being paleo whilst having a child is very different to my previous life before I became a mother.

This year I have noticed so many incredible improvements in myself physically, mentally and with my general recovery post stroke. I’m so pleased to share that I maintain a positive outlook on life and would be nowhere without the love, blessings and mercy of Allaah. I am so undeserving yet so grateful. If Covid-19 wasn’t the main situation in life at the moment, i would absolutely love to revisit my therapists in rehab to show them just how far I have come. When I visited in 2018 they were proud of me then. I’m so pleased I was chosen to be a success story, I’m so pleased and grateful I have a second chance at life, to do good and to do better within my capabilites. My excitement and enthusiasm in writing a post after so long has worn me out so I’m going to wrap up here. I’m hoping to keep you guys up to date more often and start sharing my paleo creations all over again. This Ramadhaan I have become a complete banana bread addict, like most in lockdown, my love of yorkshire puddings is stronger than ever and I absolutely love my chocolate waffles, in fact I had one today!

Stay safe, wash your hands, God bless and please keep my daughter and I in your thoughts and prayers. A x