June Lockdown Update

It’s been sometime since I updated my blog, over two years if I’m not mistaken.

Just thought I’d give a small update. If you see this, drop me a comment and let me know you guys are still around.

So, my recovery has quite frankly, been astounding Allaahumma baarik aameen. Over time I have had some very small changes such as regaining some sensation in various parts of my body (we’re talking about the size of a 5p coin) at a time and I’ve noticed these changes may not even be permanent in most cases, however, it certainly gives one hope that healing is continuously taking place. A lot of the time I choose to not share my small victories as I don’y want to get my hopes up and then be let down. Alhamdulillaah that’s not the case as I actually have my emotions under control and can remain moderate in most, if not all things.

So since 2018, I came to terms with the fact that I may ot actually be physically nor mentally able to home school my daughter which was always my dream. It took me the entire Ramadhaan that year to silently and privately come to terms with that decision. I later that year put her into nursery part time which was great for her social skills as I realised she was much like me since leaving hospital and didn’t like socialising much. In October 2019 I was given back my driver’s licence which gave me the freedom to leave my house independently. I started with very short local journeys of up to 5 minutes. I couldn’t fully be independent as car parks were somewhat an issue as a non-disabled person. Having to park a short distance from where I was going with a distracted 3 year old and often in weather conditions and temperatures that didn’t suit my body was a mission. Thankfully, I was soon given a blue badge which made my life incredibly easy. As much as I never wanted to be labeled disabled it has been an incredible blessing and it is a label I am fully proud of. I’m pleased to be able to represent the disabled community and being from a BAME background I’m in a position to dispell misconceptions and presumptions where possible. In January this year, I got my first permanent part-time job since falling ill and being on maternity leave. This has meant I am able to fund my healthy lifestyle once again and at the start of Ramadhaan this year I went back to being paleo. I went through a week long healing crisis but it helped me hit the reset button. Being paleo whilst having a child is very different to my previous life before I became a mother.

This year I have noticed so many incredible improvements in myself physically, mentally and with my general recovery post stroke. I’m so pleased to share that I maintain a positive outlook on life and would be nowhere without the love, blessings and mercy of Allaah. I am so undeserving yet so grateful. If Covid-19 wasn’t the main situation in life at the moment, i would absolutely love to revisit my therapists in rehab to show them just how far I have come. When I visited in 2018 they were proud of me then. I’m so pleased I was chosen to be a success story, I’m so pleased and grateful I have a second chance at life, to do good and to do better within my capabilites. My excitement and enthusiasm in writing a post after so long has worn me out so I’m going to wrap up here. I’m hoping to keep you guys up to date more often and start sharing my paleo creations all over again. This Ramadhaan I have become a complete banana bread addict, like most in lockdown, my love of yorkshire puddings is stronger than ever and I absolutely love my chocolate waffles, in fact I had one today!

Stay safe, wash your hands, God bless and please keep my daughter and I in your thoughts and prayers. A x


You are what you eat…

Based on that I’m nuts..! An apple and herbal tea.

I’ve been doing some thinking over the last month or so, bear with me as my thoughts are a little mixed as I had a lot to contemplate. Food really affects me, particularly gluten and in more ways than you could imagine! I don’t have coeliac disease but there are other symptoms I have not related to the gut. That said, I recently noticed that I no longer wake up with stomach aches. It wasn’t a major concern because the stomach aches were minor but it was significant enough for me to notice… which makes me think that perhaps gluten was having some kind of effect on my guts, Allaahu a’alam, but I’m glad it’s over.

For any women out there (or men!) who have tried dieting in the past, and I mean with the intention to lose weight, you may have noticed that when you cut out fried and greasy foods, sugary drinks and so on, that your body starts to look a little rough. I’m talking about things like an outbreak of spots for example. It’s usual for this to happen because your body is finally being given the opportunity to cleanse itself so it’s forcing all the muck and dirt out the pores. You’ll realise than in order to get better you start looking a little worse. Stick it out, it’s worth it… after a couple of weeks or so.

You may have seen similiar quotes to this, I don’t know the specific time period for various organs but you get the gist… “Every 28ish days your skin replaces itself and various other organs do the same. Your body makes these new cells from the food you eat. What you eat literally becomes you. You have a choice in what you’re made of. You are what you eat. ”

In short: Whatever food we put into our bodies, become our cells and becomes our body. Every time you eat or drink, you are either feeding disease or fighting it. Fact.

Speaking of bad foods, I Loved crisps. Note the past tense. I saw a documentary about food ont he BBC a good couple of years ago I think and someone was investigating what made crisps so addictive. Turns out it was the ‘crunch factor’. I’m not surprised, I love crispy and crunchy things, there really is something pleasurable about the sound. I can’t remember specificis as it was too long ago but it triggers something in our brain that makes us a little addicted. They even had a machine which measure the level of crunchiness of a crisp and that determined if a batch passed the test or not! Actually, considering I loved crisps, I didn’t eat them that often and I didn’t really eat much bad food pre-GF and Paleo… just the bread and stuff(!)
I quite like this advert by the British Heart Foundation. It’s gross and for those of you who still munch on packets of crisps you know there’s always an extra greasy packet… oh, the things I don’t miss!

A change in diet can change everything about your life in a positive way. I recently saw the following on a bumper sticker: “My day starts backwards…. I wake up tired and go to bed wide awake.” – That used to be me and it’s pretty much everyone I know unfortunately. It’s never too late to change your habits, ditch the comfort foods and all things unhealthy.
I used to be a fairly busy person, always multi-tasking and doing things to distract me in attempt to focus my attention on something semi-worthwhile. Looking back on those times, although I enjoyed the adrenaline rush and the craziness, it wasn’t good for my body and did nothing to help stress levels back then.
As soon as I started feeding my body well and eliminated everything that was harmful to me my thoughts became a lot clearer and organised. I suddenly wasn’t stressed despite the fact that I was writing my dissertation and had a few bits of bad news. Alhamdulillaah alaa kulli haal (All praise is to due to Allaah in all circumstances) …. things worked out well, my dissertation was done on time, problems were solved and the normal effects of stress on my body weren’t present… all of this was of course due to the Will of Allaah and His guidance but also because I tied my camel and did everything I could in order to make my life better and placed my trust in Allaah. Which reminds me, I need to share a book with everyone, it was one of the first I read on my recent ‘journey’ and I focused on it for a few weeks… with some guidance.

It’s now 10:35pm and in my world, that’s late. A part of my new lifestyle is sleeping no later than 10:30pm and not focusing on any screens (other than my phone) so I’m gonna lazily finish this post in a hurry, apologies!
Everyone’s different, we all have a different story and we have different things motivating us. Giving up the things you love is difficult but it is replaced with something much better… I know my motivation and intentions and I wouldn’t swap it for all the treasures on this planet.
Remember this: whatever changes you make, don’t expect everyone to understand the journey you’ve embarked on, especially if they have never walked your path.

And lastly, some good quality advice:

You’ll need this skill if you want to find alternatives for the bad foods and you don’t have to be a chef!